Hi there,
If you have ever seen this blog before, you will probably have noticed that it has been a year and a day since my last post.
So much has happened and none of it was nice. I won't go into details because I am a very private person. Suffice to say, there has been no activity in the baby making department.
Tonight I am watching an episode of One Born Every Minute and I feel so jealous, I want to be one of those women labouring and giving birth with the loving support of my husband, I want to be the one getting monitored by the midwife and being encouraged and told that I am doing well. I want to be the one sucking on that gas and breathing through the contractions, knowing that with each one my baby's head is dropping lower and lower. I want to be that woman birthing her baby and crying with joy and relief.
I have to believe that it will happen for me one day too.
2011 Fertility Focus Telesummit
Click on the logo above to register for the 2011 Fertility Focus Telesummit which starts 21 March! Registration is free!!
Wednesday, 21 March 2012
Sunday, 20 March 2011
It starts tonight!!
The Fertility Focus Telesummit 2011 begins at 8pm (UK time) with a pre-event welcome call.
You still have time to register via this link.
Once registered you will receive an email that will give you a link to the teleseminar which will go live at 8pm.
If you live in NSW, VIC or ACT in Australia, you will need to be up early and tuning in at 7am but if you live in QLD you will need to be ready at 6am.
Hope you will join me in just a few hours' time!
You still have time to register via this link.
Once registered you will receive an email that will give you a link to the teleseminar which will go live at 8pm.
If you live in NSW, VIC or ACT in Australia, you will need to be up early and tuning in at 7am but if you live in QLD you will need to be ready at 6am.
Hope you will join me in just a few hours' time!
Thursday, 17 March 2011
5 days to go!
The countdown is on...
On the 21st of March 2011 the biggest online fertility information event starts, and I want YOU to be there... for FREE!
The Fertility Focus Telesummit is a unique event, that brings live presentations from some of the world's top fertility experts straight into your home!
For one whole week, fertility experts will be giving information packed presentations, sharing their knowledge, tip and techniques to help YOU overcome fertility issues.
As well as listening to these extremely useful presentations either online or on the phone, you will also have a golden opportunity to ask them your burning questions about your fertility. This is such a unique opportunity that you won't want to miss!
And best of all, you can register and attend the Fertility Focus Telesummit 2011 completely free of charge!
Thousands of people have already registered their free place, and I strongly recommend you grab a place too. We will be sharing such a wealth of fertility information over the week that I'm sure babies will be conceived and lives changed after this event.
Join us today ready for when it all starts on Monday March 21st!
On the 21st of March 2011 the biggest online fertility information event starts, and I want YOU to be there... for FREE!
The Fertility Focus Telesummit is a unique event, that brings live presentations from some of the world's top fertility experts straight into your home!
For one whole week, fertility experts will be giving information packed presentations, sharing their knowledge, tip and techniques to help YOU overcome fertility issues.
As well as listening to these extremely useful presentations either online or on the phone, you will also have a golden opportunity to ask them your burning questions about your fertility. This is such a unique opportunity that you won't want to miss!
And best of all, you can register and attend the Fertility Focus Telesummit 2011 completely free of charge!
Thousands of people have already registered their free place, and I strongly recommend you grab a place too. We will be sharing such a wealth of fertility information over the week that I'm sure babies will be conceived and lives changed after this event.
Join us today ready for when it all starts on Monday March 21st!
Friday, 11 March 2011
Seeing miscarriages from a spiritual perspective
Every pregnancy loss has been traumatic for me, the last one was the worst of all as I actually got to see the tiny body of our little boy and then I had to spend a night in hospital where I cried so hard that by morning my eyes were just two swollen slits on my face.
A lovely lady, who had been guiding me through some EFT sessions last year, recently said something about my recurrent miscarriages that has allowed me to view the losses in a different way and to associate them as being small blessings. Kae suggested in her email that each time I suffered a miscarriage it was a very stressful and toxic environment for the baby so its spirit chose to leave as the timing wasn't right. Then, each time I conceived again this spirit was in effect checking in but decided to leave again.
A lovely lady, who had been guiding me through some EFT sessions last year, recently said something about my recurrent miscarriages that has allowed me to view the losses in a different way and to associate them as being small blessings. Kae suggested in her email that each time I suffered a miscarriage it was a very stressful and toxic environment for the baby so its spirit chose to leave as the timing wasn't right. Then, each time I conceived again this spirit was in effect checking in but decided to leave again.
It doesn't really matter whether this is true or not, but what truly matters is how I see it and how my subconscious will act on it.
I feel better about myself after reading Kae's email, I feel like I am letting my body "off the hook" for failing to do what it is designed to do. For so long I have felt like a failure because I haven't been able to sustain a pregnancy to full term, I had this belief that my body was f***ed and I wasn't doing something right and somehow I didn't deserve to be a mother. I believed it was Karma paying me back for something I had done terribly wrong in the past.
But now.... I think I have arrived at a place where I am feeling at peace, almost thankful. I can look at what happened and believe that my baby (or babies?) was doing everything it had to do to protect itself - and me - to make sure that the timing is right for both of us.
I have learned so much about myself over the last 4 years including how fiercely I already LOVE my future babies. I want to be ready for them and give them THE BEST start to life and nurture them so that they grow up to be wise, strong, amazing and inspiring people who will make a difference to the world.
Thank you my little angels xo
Fertility Focus Telesummit 2011
The biggest and most exciting online fertility event EVER is now open for registrations!!
The Fertility Focus Telesummit 2011 starts on March 21st and runs for the whole week, with presentations from top fertility experts from around the world on subjects as varied as nutrition, acupuncture, EFT and astrology. As well as authorative medical advice from international best selling fertility authors and experts Maralyn Glenville, Toni Weschler and Zita West.
You can listen in to the Fertility Focus Telesummit all week long from the comfort of your own home, via the phone or internet. And best of all... it's completely FREE of charge to listen live and for 24 hours after. PLUS you can ask these experts YOUR burning fertility questions and have them answered live on air! Last year's event was a huge success and I don't want you to miss out this year, so sign up now to secure your FREE place before the event starts on March 21st.
Sunday, 6 March 2011
The power of dreams
Do you ever have dreams about babies and small children?
I had a really amazing dream just before I woke up this morning. It was about the most angelic little girl with curly blonde hair, she was about 4 years old. As soon as I saw her across a field I suddenly knew everything about her, as if I had just watched a story on the news about her life. She had no parents and she had been ill so was being cared for by a foster family.
She looked across the field and saw me and her face lit up. In front of me was a stone wall and the grass was level with the top of the wall, so when she reached me we were almost at eye level. We took each other's hands and just smiled and laughed, her face was pure joy, my heart almost bursting with the love I felt for her.
I just wanted to scoop her up and hold her in my arms forever, she was just so beautiful. She wouldn't stop smiling at me, it was as if she had known me her whole life. I was on the verge of sobbing with joy, I tried so hard to hold back the tears, knowing that I had found my daughter but unable to just take her home without doing all the adoption applications first.
When I woke from the dream I felt so happy but then I realised it wasn't real and my joy came crashing down. I haven't been able to stop thinking about the dream all day. These dreams make me wonder: is this a message from her, telling me to have faith and that she is coming for me? Just about every time I have a dream about a child that is mine in the dream it is always a girl with blonde hair. Each time I dream about her, she is a little bit older.
I wish I could know what these dreams represent, I'd like to believe that she is my future daughter but I am too scared in case it doesn't come true. These dreams are always so lovely to have but when I wake up they make me feel so sad that they aren't real.
I had a really amazing dream just before I woke up this morning. It was about the most angelic little girl with curly blonde hair, she was about 4 years old. As soon as I saw her across a field I suddenly knew everything about her, as if I had just watched a story on the news about her life. She had no parents and she had been ill so was being cared for by a foster family.
She looked across the field and saw me and her face lit up. In front of me was a stone wall and the grass was level with the top of the wall, so when she reached me we were almost at eye level. We took each other's hands and just smiled and laughed, her face was pure joy, my heart almost bursting with the love I felt for her.
I just wanted to scoop her up and hold her in my arms forever, she was just so beautiful. She wouldn't stop smiling at me, it was as if she had known me her whole life. I was on the verge of sobbing with joy, I tried so hard to hold back the tears, knowing that I had found my daughter but unable to just take her home without doing all the adoption applications first.
When I woke from the dream I felt so happy but then I realised it wasn't real and my joy came crashing down. I haven't been able to stop thinking about the dream all day. These dreams make me wonder: is this a message from her, telling me to have faith and that she is coming for me? Just about every time I have a dream about a child that is mine in the dream it is always a girl with blonde hair. Each time I dream about her, she is a little bit older.
I wish I could know what these dreams represent, I'd like to believe that she is my future daughter but I am too scared in case it doesn't come true. These dreams are always so lovely to have but when I wake up they make me feel so sad that they aren't real.
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Demolish & re-build
I was reading a birth story today that made me stop and think. This woman was not infertile by any means, it took her only 10 months to conceive but she was getting frustrated that it was "taking so long" and she said:
It seems I needed those ten months to prepare for the birth that my baby wanted, to be the mother and person she needed me to be.
Having waited for so long now for a baby of my own, the birth story made me wonder......
What if my babies are waiting for me in spirit to join me at the time that I am emotionally, mentally and spiritually ready for them and to give them the amazing birth and life they want to experience?
What if I need that time, not only to prepare myself for my journey into motherhood, but to pave the way for their journey on earth?
Lately I have felt that the last 5-6 years have been a test of my resilience and courage, my outlook on life has changed for sure. My eyes have been opened up to the world of infertility in a way that I never imagined would happen to me and I feel like a part of myself has been torn down like a condemned building. Only now do I feel like I am just starting to re-build.
It seems I needed those ten months to prepare for the birth that my baby wanted, to be the mother and person she needed me to be.
Having waited for so long now for a baby of my own, the birth story made me wonder......
What if my babies are waiting for me in spirit to join me at the time that I am emotionally, mentally and spiritually ready for them and to give them the amazing birth and life they want to experience?
What if I need that time, not only to prepare myself for my journey into motherhood, but to pave the way for their journey on earth?
Lately I have felt that the last 5-6 years have been a test of my resilience and courage, my outlook on life has changed for sure. My eyes have been opened up to the world of infertility in a way that I never imagined would happen to me and I feel like a part of myself has been torn down like a condemned building. Only now do I feel like I am just starting to re-build.
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